"Being confident of this very thing, that he which hath begun a good work in you will perform it until the day of Jesus Christ:" Philippians 1:6
It's been a long time...
I've been busy living, learning, loving, growing. Seasons have come and gone. Life has brought unexpected changes. It has brought gains, and losses. It has brought joy and sorrow. There have been mountain tops and valleys. Through it all He has remained faithful.
These last few years have truly tried my faith. When I thought that things were at their worse and somehow, someway he brought me out. The circumstances didn't change. He changed me! This year 2021 the jubilee year- my fiftieth- plunged me into the deepest pit I've ever experienced. As I type this a little more that six months after the worst realizations in my life, I can only do so and only continue by God's grace and mercy. I'm not all the way out. I'm not all the way healed. But I'm yet walking, yet standing, yet being grateful for each day. Somehow he's kept my mind. Somehow he has keep my feet from slipping. Somehow he's little by little pulling me out and putting my broken pieces back together. I don't know what he's doing. I don't know his purpose in all of this. I can't see the end of it. Maybe one day I'll tell it. Maybe that will be my healing. For now all I can say without a shadow of a doubt- is that he's faithful!
He's faithful when life is hard. He's faithful when friends are few. He's yet faithful. He's faithful when I fail. I often fail. He's faithful in sorrow and tears. He's faithful in dark nights, and endless days. He's faithful in loneliness. He's faithful in anger and despair. He's faithful when he doesn't answer my prayers. He's faithful when he doesn't answer my prayers the way I'd like. He's faithful when I don't like or understand his way and his way of doing things and allowing things to happen. He's still faithful.
He's still trustworthy. I haven't gotten any of it figured out. I'm walking this walk by faith. I'm still trusting him with my life. He only is able to give me joy for mourning, and get beauty out of ashes. His promises are yes and amen. I'll still trust him. He's still faithful.
"It is of the Lord's mercies that we are not consumed, because his compassions fail not. They are new every morning: great is thy faithfulness."
Lamentations 3:22-23
